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Archive for Dialogue – Page 10

Unbridling

In my small group ‘wisdom circle’ at yesterday’s Thought Leader Gathering, the question before us was "What gifts do you have hidden in your attic?", meaning, ‘What personal dreams, thoughts, actions, etc. do you withhold from the world?’.

Most of those in our small group were pretty ‘out there’ types, used to expressing ourselves freely, but even so each of us could identify a level at which we still keep ourselves hidden, afraid our true selves would be ‘too much’ or somehow ‘inappropriate’ if spoken out loud.

When pressed for details, a well-known creativity coach in our group described his hidden gift as the urge to "sing instead of speaking; write fiction instead of essays", and paint his dreams. Another, a high-level corporate firebrand, admitted that she really doesn’t work very hard… that she spends quite a bit of work time in silent contemplation on the deck, looking out over the ocean. The big ideas come to her once or twice a week; she doesn’t need to slave under a clock 8-10 hours a day, and if she did they probably wouldn’t come at all. But she doesn’t tell anyone this simple truth for fear they’d judge her for knowing that life doesn’t have to be so hard.

For all of us there was an inhibition, a subtle (& sometimes not so subtle) bridling that keeps us from being fully ourselves.

Now there is no doubt that there are merits to bridling some impulses –
no one is suggesting we hurt or defame one another – but what if this
inhibition we all seem to feel is a mass hypnotic trance, an illusion of ‘normalcy’ that denies us our true emotional range as human beings? What is so terrible in this day and age about being different, standing out, or being ‘inappropriate’? Who IS this Arbitrar of the Appropriate, anyway?! Thank Goddess we no longer burn witches in America, and still have the Constitutional right of free speech, though many appear afraid to use it these days.

The truth is I feel liberated when someone next to me is ‘outrageous’ – I feel my spirit lighten and begin to rise a little, and I gain courage for going beyond fear and my own limits of the verbotten.

We moved seats and did another round, this time the question on how our withheld gift has already started showing up in the world…

For me part of the answer to this question has been taking a stand in my approach to online communications. As a intuitively-motivated woman in a largely male-dominated technical field, I can’t help but ‘stand out’ a little, not always comfortably. While my entire industry seems to be moving towards slick templates & complex functionality within an impersonal wrapper that somehow feels
both over-crowded and sterile, I’ve consciously kept my aesthetic
warm, simple and personal, designed for ease and the way a person might actually use
it.

I’m not afraid to use color and engage the senses. I like being a woman, and honor the natural sensitivity and sensibility I was born with. Still, it’s been a process for me to come to self-acceptance and an open acknowledgment of my values.

A big step in my public emergence from the closet was starting this blog. It wasn’t easy. I was afraid writing about beauty would make me appear too ‘soft’; that undertaking this passion of my heart wasn’t ‘professional’ enough; that exposing my aesthetic & spiritual underpinnings might make me appear naive or irrelevant in this fast-moving world I work in.

But at the end of the day (as they say in England) that’s what’s in my heart. This is my true authentic self showing up in the world. What’s most exciting to me about all this is realizing that my small courage can catalyze courage in others. How the permission I give myself is like a key that unlocks permission in others and magically allows more of us to be exactly as we are. It’s like a courage contagion! πŸ™‚

So here’s to each of us unbridling our inner outrageousness and releasing it to run free, like a courage meme rippling its way out into the world…

Bioneers ~ Last Day

I came in late, just in time for the last few minutes of the first plenary session with Rachel Remen where the whole auditorium was vibrating; everyone in it singing softly as one voice. An auspicious beginning, as it turned out.

Rachel was followed by Maria Durazo, president of the Hotel &
Restaurant Employees Union’s Local 11, who reminded us that the organic
food industry also uses immigrant labor, and doesn’t necessarily treat
their workers, both legal and un-documented, any better. Next, Spencer Beebe, founder of Ecotrust, talking about building a new nation – "Why not call ourselves Salmon Nation?", he asks – based on bioregions governed by nature, on principles much longer-lasting than those of politics.

Beebe was followed by the beautiful Sophia Quintero, a young woman who is helping to transform her world through popular culture. She founded ChicaLuna to support girls of color in developing film-making skills, & because every movie is a political movie, she gives them a solid foundation of political & feminist analysis skills so the films they make can reflect their own values, and not just reinforce the values of the dominant culture that so often demeans them.

The last plenary of the morning was presented by Paul Hawken who was introduced by Kenny Ausubel as a man who has been a human lighthouse to many of us – I know I have been following his thinking ever since he was with Erewhon – a natural foods company he started back in Boston; was it really the very first natural food company? – where I worked with him back in the 70s. Paul is a visionary thinker in the truest sense, but he has always been firmly grounded in the practical, writing books like The Ecology of Commerce and founding many profitable companies including the popular Smith & Hawken gardening supply chain. I lost my pen during his presentation, so I couldn’t take notes, but I was absolutely stunned by what he had to say.

I’m sure I can’t do justice to it… and it might not sound so unusual if you don’t know his history… but Paul shared that he has come to realize the environmental movement has to be based in a spiritual ethos; that to be viable it has to embrace the social justice movement so that the two become one. He said that in fact the environmental movement grew out of social movements that later went on to become religions, like Taoism & Confucianism, and that human beings are born with an altruistic instinct – that the need to care for others is hard-wired into us.

The implications of Paul’s talk are still reverberating in me, and I for one am going to download his words from the Bioneers site – share them with my partner and listen to them again myself.

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This last day was a very different kind of energy for me. Things were happening slower, and a lot more went on, somehow. Perhaps because I was experiencing more outdoors… I took my lunch outside, and after eating laid back on the grass, looking up at the thick tangle of leaves above me, feeling the sun & warm breeze on my skin.

After lunch, I was drawn to a rapper who was on a rough stage in the center of the plaza with a mic in his hand, calling out rhythmically to the crowd "There’s only one God… He’s got a lot of names, but there’s only one God… He’s got a lot of names." This guy, whose MySpace name is GoodFelllow (yep, three ‘l’s) was very good, and he reminded me of my friend Jahan, who is also a rapper that draws on spirituality for his poetics. I hope the two meet, and they take the world by storm. (I just looked up GF and found that he calls himself a ‘Troubador of Divine Bliss’! πŸ™‚

My first post-plenary session after lunch was wonderful, if a bit strange. It was supposed to be an interactive session on EcoArt, with about 30 artists taking part. Apparently they’d only expected 30 additional people because there were 60 chairs set up in a tight circle in the front of the large tent where we were meeting. The trouble was there were more like 90 people in the room, and the circle didn’t expand, so a lot of of us were sitting in rows looking at a solid wall of backs.  Still, there were some fascinating artists there and I heard some wonderful words spoken, even though for the most part it was impossible to know who was speaking.

Answering a question about the kinds of tools they use, one artist said that he thinks of his art as a bridge between those things he carries deep inside him and their manifestation in the external world, and therefore he sees his heart as a primary tool for art-making. Another said that in her experience photography is a tool to bring people into the moment and produce a sort of meditative experience. Helen & Newton Harrison were there, and Nelson said they often use what he calls an eco-flip; they will take something assumed, penetrate the belief or metaphor surrounding it, and then ‘flip’ it – taking their design in a whole new direction. Work on ‘flood control’, for instance, might become a piece with ‘spreading of the waters’ as a central theme. Their creative scope & vision is amazing; I would have liked an entire session focused just on them!

I think I might have saved the best for last, however, because I was truly entranced my my last session, and could have stayed there forever – I didn’t want to leave. It was David Abram, who I absolutely adore because of the pleasure I got from reading Spell of the Sensuous, and the ever-interesting Susan Griffin, in a session called Re-visioning the Language of Environmentalism.

They talked about the extremely transformative metaphoric power of words; their ability to change experience & therefore reality. David said there are ways of speaking that enhance the reciprocity between words and our bodily senses & there are those that stifle this connection and tend to make us live more in our heads, keeping us aloof from our bodies and the earth we live in.

Susan brought up the old split between the spiritual and the material, and how the pejorative way we use the words and association of ‘matter’ effects us and cuts us off from our bodies, each other and the earth. She talked about the need to find a language that can hold the grief
that is commensurate with our times, and David said perhaps this is one
of the reasons for our abstractions, and why we are all in flight from
a body which we fear cannot hold all the grief we know is there.

We talked a bit about the abstraction of a phrase like ‘global warming’ – David prefers the term ‘planetary fever’ because it’s really more like a fever, this world-wide malaise we are all experiencing, where there are extreme oscillations between overwhelming heat and the ‘shivers’ that follow.

Then the phenomenon that is David Abram started to wax poetic – he talked about gravity as eros, the definition of gravity being the natural force of attraction exerted by one body upon another. What if, he reasoned, our every step on earth was a conscious enactment of our love affair with earth? How would knowing this effect the way we experience the simple act of walking?

He impressed upon us the need to rejuvenate oral culture – to language the local culture of which we are part without always needing to bind the words down to paper. Instead, he invites us to share our words, so that you can hear the breath behind them. Speech is shaped breath, he reminds us, and it is the air that carries your words to my ears. Air is the mystery we live in, where all the voices of the ancestors live… we are immersed in this atmosphere, like fish in the sea.

Air is a part of earth – sometimes he calls it Eairth to make this clearer – and when we connect with it in our speech, we remain grounded rather than withdraw into abstraction. What if our minds are not ours, he asks, but the earth’s? If that is so, we are all immersed in the mind of the earth – the air.

Each of us lives in the mystery, in direct relationship to the elements around and within us, & each of us has our own creative access to the ‘real’ of our bodies. He invites us to find the ways & begin speaking from our own skin, our hearts, our bones. Language is just a set of poetics, he says – get in there and play! Be creative!

We need to develop speaking that is contagious, he went on, language that can spread through
the culture like a virus. We all need to become poets, in the sense of
speaking beautifully –
luring people with our words into their senses and skin, helping them
to wake up in their bodies.

See what I mean? πŸ™‚

Bioneers ~ Day2

Ok, I’m hooked.

Day 2 at BIoneers was bliss from beginning to end. Maybe it’s just the luck of the draw in choosing from the rich bounty offered beyond the plenaries, but I thoroughly enjoyed myself all day…

I’d still like to see a more open format for the break-out sessions, but I did notice how much personal interaction & networking was happening on the grounds between sessions, and how well connection is fostered in the range of evening opportunities offered. There is a lot of vitality here, and the organic integration of age and race is truly remarkable.

Again, the plenary was spectacular (btw, these plenary sessions are all available as downloadable mp3s or CDs online in the Bioneers store – they’re sold individually or as a set), starting with the impressive young Clayton Thomas MΓΌeller from the Indigenous Environmental Network
who began by asking permission to speak from the ancestors of the
peoples of this land, saying "I come here humbly, in a good way."

This gentle but powerful beginning was followed by a hard-hitting challenge from Thomas Linzey, co-founder of the Community Environmental Legal Defense Fund, leveled at the efficacy of Regulatory Acts, which only regulate the flow of destruction, and the assumption that our environmental efforts are made within a democracy, where the majority rules.

To illustrate this last point, Linzey took us back to our legal system’s roots in English property law, showing that it was created to secure the expansion of empire, & based on the protection of property – favoring the rights of a small group of nobles against the majority of possible dissentors at home. He went on to quote John Adams and other authors of the Constitution, our ‘founding fathers’, revealing their priviledging of the power elite over the rights of the people (which back then of course did not include women, or people of color). Rather than being the product of democracy, Linzey asserts, we are actually living in a corporate state.

The hits just kept coming… Linzey was followed by Carl Anthony, past director of the Earth Island Institute who was likened by the woman who introduced him to the "mountain" that June Jordon called on to describe Martin Luther King. She left the stage in tears, deeply moved by the importance of this powerful black man in the white dominated field of the environmental movement. And this charistmatic black man was indeed instrumental in bringing the threads of justice, race, and class issues to the fore and weaving them into the warp of environmentalism, in the service of making it relevant to all peoples.

Anthony projected a wonderful film about the origins of human beings, which unveiled the centrality of the black race in that history and showed how we can all learn from the lessons we see reflected there.

Anthony was follwed by an Amy Goodman, on fire with her message about the need for independent media and the importance of protecting it – including the crucial importance of net neutrality. She went on to blast the White House Press Corp, who she called the ‘Access of Evil – trading access for truth’, and media giants who have favored profits and the protection of the powerful over the sacred oaths of their profession.

I think Amy Goodman has matured beautifully – in the past I’ve had trouble with what I’ve perceived as her tendency to create or stir polarity and opposition, rather than provide true neutrality or even better, find a perspective that would foster more positive results, but today I was struck by her deeply compassionate humanity, and her obvious service towards making a better world.

The afternoon sessions I chose were both just amazing experiences…

Most striking was the first, called ‘Women’s Leadership in Transforming Culture’. Maybe it was the smaller panel (Sarah Crowell, Susan Griffith, Sofia Quintero & Joanna Macy) or maybe the skill of the moderator (Akaya Windwood), or maybe it was the easy cooperation between the panelists, or the fact they they were all women, but this session really flowed with energy and creativity and true interaction. The talk went deep & got personal; it brought several people close to tears, and it brought in the ‘co-madres’ in the audience so that we all felt a part of it and knew the power of women’s leadership in our own bones and hearts.

The second, ‘Nature, God, and String Theory’ with Brian Swimme, Leonard Susskind and Mary Evelyn Tucker, moderated by Bokara Legendre, was much more abstract and to tell the truth I could barely follow Susskind’s over-simplified presentation on string theory but it was fascinating to see these great minds grapple with the big questions.

Bokara is obviously a professional and she did a brilliant job of keeping the conversation lively, posing several provocative questions and calling on the expertise of Science, Religion & Cosmology (represented by each of the panelists) for answers to the great mysteries.

I resonated most deeply with ME Tucker’s learned expositions of religious and philosophic interpretations of our origins, particularly Confucianism’s placing of the human in the cosmology of heaven and earth. Over and over she was succinct in her responses, and poetic without losing objectivity.

There was an interesting point in this deeply astute and knowledgable discourse when no one countered Susskind’s assertion that mathematics was chosen as the language of reality because it was the only logical option, and I had to agreed with his own admission to being a ‘killjoy’ when he responded to a question about whether the universe is alive by dryly asking for a definition of ‘alive’.

But I loved the session, even though Swimme was strangely reticent to speak to a number of Legendre’s questions, or say much of anything beyond his inital assertion of the magic of life and how beautiful the world is from all perspectives – which was plenty for me, by the way – and it occurred to me that there might be some academic politics at play here.

All in all a wonderful day, and I’m very much looking forward to this next, last one… and to following the ripples from this event’s vast seeding for good.

>> Next: Day Three…

Bioneers

A very cool side-effect of attending the legendary Bioneers conference this year is witnessing the dawn light outside my window – I can just see the last sliver of the waning moon each morning as I wake up in enough time to get ready & drive over the bridge.

I was really excited to be sitting in the audience as it began yesterday morning. Bioneers is one of those gatherings that several thousand people hold as a sacred yearly ritual, and the warm welcome from co-producers Nina Simons & Ken Ausubel made me feel that I would definitely be one of them in the future.

Plus, from a professional standpoint, I am thrilled by the whole Beaming Bioneers concept they’ve pioneered, of broadcasting the conference plenary sessions into 18 US cities (from Anchorage, Alaska to Marion, Massechusetts) via video satellite, to be presented along with relevant on-the-ground sessions offered by their local partners. This seems like a great model for the future.

Nina summed up the Bioneers ethos "It’s all alive; it’s all intelligent; it’s all connected;
we’re all relatives" as she congratulated us in our
collective efforts to write ‘a new co-creation story’ and the
conference was of to a fabulous start.

The plenary sessions didn’t
disappoint, and two of the five particularly moved me. The first was a stunning presentation/performance by the students of DestinyArts, a spoken word/dance/movement center run by the spectacularly cool Sarah Crowell. The kids were amazing, and I have to say that lots of us aging idealists pronounce our desire to include and attract younger people in our projects and organizations, but Bioneers puts its programming and love and attention where it needs to be to actually make that happen – this audience had a huge percentage of people under 30, and the energy was HOT.

Besides my body’s response to the beat of these vibrant dancers, my heart & mind were both extremely responsive to Sarah, whose presentation was entitled "The Courage to Walk in Beauty". She began with an invitation for us to turn to the people around us and introduce ourselves, recognizing the beauty we saw reflected there & then speaking it out loud, and went on to talk about how she uses this recognition of beauty in each other to help these kids take "big wide strides with ‘I belong here’ in them. She ended by saying "Let us not be a generation that is afraid to look into each other’s eyes and find something beautiful there…" Now this is a girl whose message I LIKE.

The next plenary session I was so struck by was given by the gifted psychologist & thinker James Hillman. He was urbane, clever, articulate and at ease even when wayward snippets of broadcasting verbiage kept finding their way into the sound system (he just addressed them like they were garbled voices in our heads or something. πŸ™‚ He delivered a beautifully drawn short essay; his main point being that as thinking beings we have criticised all the ‘positives’ out of our lives – one can no longer make a positive statement without needing to justify it – in today’s sophisticated intellect everything is polarized and presented as oppositional. He gave a long list of examples, saying it is time we went beyond the binaries of current thought, back to Aristotle and the ‘excluded middle’ to return some nuance to our understandings of reality.

Like the Coyote Trickster figure of Native American mythology, he encouraged us to turn everything we know upside down, just to see what it looks like. Instead of bemoaning the fact that America is a nation of adoloescents and youth-obsession, let’s throw our money & energy into the youth – for education, for health care. Let school begin at 10:30 or 11 to follow their natural sleep pattern rather than force them into a schedule that works for administrators and building cleaners.

He went on in this vein for some time, playing a sort of devil’s advocate hand, suggesting that rather than be upset by the apparent apathy & lack of national political interest in electing our highest offices, we do what Americans are best at and ‘drop out’, simply ignore what we know is corrupt and not worth our time, and not show up for those elections. Instead, he championed those cities who have taken the lead on issues like climate change, fuel emissions, human rights, minimum wage, etc. rather than let the national government set the agenda & limits.

I was a little disappointed during a later session where he was meant to be presenting on something called "When Stories Change, the World Changes" as part of a small panel, but as it turned out there were so many panelists that he only had 10 minutes to briefly share his thoughts on the narrative models our current stories are based upon – Christianism, Scienceism, and Economics, and as a whole, the session never did get around to actually discussing how changing our stories might change the world.

Ah well, Hillman’s exemplary plenary session alone was good enough to justify the price of Friday’s ticket.

I was very disappointed by a session on "Internet Interventions & Cyberspace Strategies", however. Maybe it’s just a case of knowing too much, but with some notable exceptions, I found the presentation a bit patronizing, and there were several things that as I thought about it, I found downright objectionable.

One of them was the fact that proprietary products were recommended without any acknowledgement of that fact, or other choices as an attempt to be objective. Another was the way that open source applications are casually referred to as ‘free’ without clarification. I’m afraid I rather traumatized the otherwise quite nice young presenter from Drupal by cornering him afterward with my demand he admit that in truth he or some other programmer would change several thousand dollars to install it, which would otherwise be impossible for a layman (or even someone quite experienced in codes other than PhP & MySQL) to do. He did admit it, so I let him go. πŸ˜‰ No really, from the heat that came up for me in that encounter it’s clear there is a lot more I want to say about this whole subject, so I’ll be addressing that in a future post.

I hate to end this report on such a negative note when I started out so filled with love & happiness :-), but the truth was I found the ‘old style’ conference model (that my experience at Bioneers so far would seem to suggest they’re still following) a bit underwhelming. I’m much more excited by the newer Conference 2.0 models of more open interaction with the presenters and among the audience, which in this case especially is full of amazing people doing amazing things.

But it’s getting late – time to go off to my 2nd day now… I’ll report back on my further adventures later.

>> Next: Day Two…